Floored, Flat out...

randomness

2010-06-17T06:00:00.003+08:00

I want to feel like i don't care, but i can't help but bother.

I shouldn't feel like this, but i can't help it.

You seem very fine to have got "rid" of me, but why do i keep on fighting for it?

Maybe there is something worth salvaging?

Or maybe i finally tell myself to not give up like I've always done and keep running through and dodge them bullets?

well, i don't know. i guess i have to ride the waves and accept the circumstances.

i don't wanna keep on ranting. but i can't tell anybody anymore.

she would probably think i'm clogging up her space with my problems, if they seem like problems worth going over anymore. if i'm wrong please do tell me so. cos this is how i feel.

another thing i don't get. exactly how much space is needed when there is a request for space?

do i need to automatically know where the line has been drawn?

is there a book pertaining how much space should be given in the case of

"bf-vs-gf: the case of the time off"?

am i supposed to stuff whatever habits accumulated during this one year into the drawers, onto the dressing table and leave it till there is finally use for it, or in this case, you think its OK for 'us' to resume, or, end?

unlike you, i don't rely on friends to 'meditate'. but with you i just crumble. no friends can bring me up. nobody. but you.

you do not understand how much importance you hold in my life. or you just simply choose to ignore because according to you, "do not underestimate my cruelty".

trust me, cruelty is a small word for what i know you can become.

thats it then.

i'm gonna try to tuck in now. not that you know anyways.

toodles.

ermmmm.....

2010-04-27T10:06:00.005+08:00

I tried to sleep. I fell asleep. And i thought that'll be the end of that.
NOOOOOOOOOO.....

The garbage truck driver just had to wake me up through his constant loud horning, just to make his presence known to the banglas, who were probably having their breakfast, to open up the shutters for the garbage place thingythingy.

Now i cannot sleep. I don't wanna wake gf up. she needs her beauty sleep. Haha... Excuses.

So i had this sudden urge to turn the laptop. After surfing, i had this strange urge to blog. Haha.. Wierd right?

Actually, like the title says, i don't really know what i wanna type down. So yea, errmmmm....
Haha...

Firstly to Mir, i would miss you being so near yet so far. Woodlands seem so far although its just a tiny island we live over here.

Second, i read some things over the net just now. Got a few things that made me a bit sad. Or maybe i'm just playing up the drama.

The world's ending people.
Global warming is real and many people or children are dying. Shiatte... i could be a UN ambassador.
Liars are accusing other people of lies and betrayal.
Immunity makes people think they can get away with anything.
Sex is becoming too public. And wanking off is just not the way to go anymore. Haha..
And god is so angry he chose to shake the world a few times these past few years.

So yea. It was quite an unpleasant morning to begin with.

And so i leave you with something i wrote quite a long time ago, yet unpublished.

My heart is heavy
My damn feet are cold
The fags are not working on me today
I'm not calm, agitated much.
So you think i won't figure it out
or even uncover it?
However you might think i don't know,
However you think i can forgo.
So here's the middle finger to you
And the rest of your world.
Fuck you, fuck him, and fuck you every little queer
Who have sought or even thought bad abt me.
Cos i just found somebody,
High and mighty, brought to it knees,
In shame, unknowingly.
So i trudge on, chin held high
With the facade of being nothing else
But perfectly normal in your eyes.
I might bite you hard one day,
But for now, i'll settle for nibbling on you
Slowly before i get there,
Someday.
Cheers!

2010-01-15T18:19:00.002+08:00

Dear you

I am but just a man. I try my best but sometimes, well, more often than not, I slip.

A man, ego. I give in only at the last minute, stubborn like a donkey. But you are always on my mind, and I always want the best fr you. Even though that doesn't always come true, I try to give you the next best thing. The things I do for you, us, I do with love.

I just wanted you to know that.

Love,
me.

2010-01-14T02:31:00.002+08:00

Just when all seems fine
And all pain free,
You jab another pin,
jab another pin in me...

- Metallica

2010-01-07T19:21:00.002+08:00

I fucked up today. Big-ass time. She shouldn't hve to get hurt like this.

Hmm....

2010-01-07T15:01:00.001+08:00

To decieve or be decieved??

The question shall be left unanswered, I suppose...

wish - nine inch nails

2009-12-11T00:35:00.000+08:00

this is the first day of my last days
i built it up now i take it apart climbed up real high now fall down real far
no need for me to stay the last thing left i just threw it away
i put my faith in god and my trust in you
now there's nothing more fucked up i could do
wish there was something real wish there was something true
wish there was something real in this world full of you
i'm the one without a soul i'm the one with this big fucking hole
no new tale to tell twenty-six years on my way to hell
gotta listen to your big time hard line bad luck fist fuck
don't think you're having all the fun
you know me i hate everyone
wish there was something real wish there was something true
wish there was something real in this world full of you
i want to but i can't turn back
but i want to

kickin it...

2009-11-03T10:46:00.002+08:00

with every day,
from dawn till dusk.
i long till the time
i see you again.

as i search within,
as i reach out for it,
the more i yearn for u
the more i long for you.

emotionally undetached,
physically undeterred.
but for the minute you turn around to leave
i miss you kissing my lips.

never question my love.
cos its yours and only yours to hold.
if i could give the world to you,
you know i would fight to win it for you.

Technically...

2009-10-29T06:51:00.004+08:00

Hi all...
Gosh this feels weird. I don't know why but I suddenly had the urge to revisit this old and dusty blog of mine.
I haven't written anything here since doggy years ago. Hek!

Anyways, that's that then. Imran has a new gf now, and she super dooper awesome. Imran hopes she's the one. At least he pretty much thinks she is. Been jammin, still jammin. Tried out anugerah and idol. Those didn't turn out good. Still working in sats, been 1 1/2 yrs nw.

I don't really know WTF i'm doin being up so early but yea....

Hahahaha... If anybody's still reading this junk site, i don't know how long I'll be back for.

So,
smell ya!

2008-12-08T02:11:00.003+08:00

What could I have done more?
I keep asking myself what is wrong
I dwell into questions I got no answers to
I eat my words up through my gaping mouth

You know I can't be around
I hide my feelings beneath this
I'm afraid i can't live up to
Afraid i can't keep up with

I'm sorry, i can't be
I'm sorry, i shouldn't have
I apologize for my shortcomings
I regret my correct decisions and my close shaves

I don't want to break you
Nor do I wanna see you hurt and cry
As big as my ego can swell
I do realize and I do empathize

I won't change my ways
'm not much of a hypocrite to do so
I'm just an insignificant
At times i don't practice wat i preach

But to hurt and break your heart is one thing
iId never even imagine of doing...

love,
me.

2008-11-25T05:46:00.003+08:00

Patched-up Perfection

I sit here alone,
While the jukebox sings my song..
Had I stood up and walked away,
This ache would've gone away.

I keep trying every night,
But nothing's wrong, nothing's ever right.
Try to keep calm but i keep tripping
Try to be steady but i keep on slippin

Try as much as i may,
As much as i might.
The future don't look so bright.

haha... sorry eh...

2008-10-19T12:03:00.003+08:00

okok, i admit i haven't been blogging at all. its been so long since i've been online till it gets to the point where my inbox's full with junk.

been absolutely hectic with work. raye pn tak jalan sey... huak huak...

although i had a mini-getaway last week to kl with shaheela and sharmeela. okok imagine...
1st day - 2 girls and a guy in a hotel room
by the 2nd day - 2 drunk girls and a drunk guy in hotel room

and we were there for 3 nights mind you! hehe...

that oughta spice things up a bit don't you think. hehe... imaginations are meant to run wild, you know. pictures coming up soon, if i can grab them from "quackquack" sharmeela.

enough already. has anybody listened to metallica's new cd? i actually don't care what you think... but i absolutely think its awesome!!!!
superb lyrics and much more intricate music arrangements than i had actually expected. sometimes when you think a band 's gonna just burn out and wash out, they just rise again... whoa!! so epic uh?! haha... but seriously, i love it.

well... i know its just a short entry but hey.. i gotta start somewhere right?? again... bluegh!!
till next time dudes and dudettes...

what's love

2008-08-29T01:14:00.002+08:00

What’s love gotta do with it
Gotta do with it, gotta do with it?
What’s love gotta do with it
Gotta do with it, gotta do with it?
What’s love?

That’s it can’t take no more
I’m leaving got one foot through the door
But I love you
I had my doubts before, I thought it through now I’m gone fi sure
But I
Can’t let you tie me down, I wanna have fun and mess around
But I love you
I gotta stand my ground though you are the best thing I found

What’s love gotta do with it
Gotta do with it, gotta do with it?
What’s love gotta do with it
Gotta do with it, gotta do with it?
What’s love?

I hope for goodness sake
That you would just cheat, make some mistake
But I love you
So perfect, wouldn't break
You gave me no reason to escape
But I love you

love, actually.

2008-07-26T04:20:00.001+08:00

But for now let me say, without hope or agenda, to me, you're perfect. And my wasted heart will love you...

ho ho ho... merry merry snowmen...

2008-07-26T02:29:00.003+08:00

I do realise that it has been ages since i actually updated. God, life has changed soo much since the last update. Work has been hectic (partly to blamed for the serious lack of updates) and i'm single.

There was nothing wrong with fatin. She could've been easily the best girlfriend i ever had. Ever. Period. Something just wasn't working. I refuse to be so typical of a guy but its me, not her. just me, not her...

I didn't wish to break your heart. I wish he'll treat you better.

and so... *inhales deeply*

and life goes on.

She

2008-05-20T14:11:00.002+08:00

ok, this a new one.. i think cos its quite old... its for that special woman in your life but she's gone and you don't know where she is. i wrote this number, i guess, more than a year ago. i don't know if the band's gonna agree on a super sappy song but I've got good reviews from outsiders.. so yea.

She

She lifts me up to the skies
She opens up my eyes
Maybe one fine day
She’ll be mine again

She’s my infatuation
My euphoric state of mind
She drives me wild
Like morphine for this ache of mine
She’s the reason I’m alive

Maybe you'll come back again
Maybe you'll disappear
Could it be that you're somewhere?
Could it be that you're near?

my band...

2008-04-27T19:30:00.005+08:00

ok... latest update on my band.. we got a new drummer right.. and he's hitting the right notes with our songs. "Again" is even becoming an instant humming hit with his hardcore brothers and other non-believers.

well...

From left: Alip - Drums
Faril - Bass
Ipan - Guitar
Imran - Vocals
Pet - Guitar

sheez...

2008-04-27T19:19:00.001+08:00

See... Told ya I'll attract attention with the previous post. Okok... Lemme get this straight, for the benefit of those people who are a little bit slower than the rest.

I have a girlfriend now. I'm not missing Diy the girlfriend or the ex... but only as the friend. That is all there is to that. So yeah..

peace.. hahaha...

a letter to an old friend

2008-04-24T16:54:00.006+08:00

To an old friend,

I wrote this letter hundreds of times in my head only to eventually throw this idea out of the window. I was worried that this could make you hate me even more.
But..

"Maybe this decision was a mistake
You probably don't care what I have to say
Its been heavy on my mind for months now
Guess I'm tryna clear some mental space."

Its been awhile since I last heard your voice calling, saying out my name. I'm saying this only as somebody who was the closest human being by your side for a good number of years. Is it really fair that at some point of time you decided to hate me?

If you're reading this, I'm not wishing you'd call me. I'm not wishing anymore than your good health and happiness... its just... Again, i guess I'm just tryna clear some mental space. Somehow, i feel that if you saw me on the streets, you'd just pass me by and pretend to not know me at all.
The question is, why have we come to such a state? Did you have to try to hate me to get away, to the point of actually hating me?

This time around, I'm not reminiscing of memories, smiling alone of happier times, but its just that somehow along with all those years, you turned to my bestest friend.. and to just lose you, THE friend, in a matter of days, seemed disastrous.

"I just wonder, do you ever think of me.. anymore, do you?"

Sometimes i do wonder, do i ever cross your mind? Not anything more than just the personal state of being I'm in. I guess its one of the few thousand questions going through my head i have about you...

In case you're still reading this, I'm not here to tell you i miss you. Miss you like the sun misses the flower, the flowers in the depth of winter bullshit... But its more of I miss the person, the laughter, the eyes, and the smile of the friend they call Diy.

Yes its you. However knowing you, I have to stress, this is not about my romanticized attachment I had towards you. I buried it with all the years. Again, I guest I just needed to clear some mental space.

"I swear I'm not tryna start no trouble, tell you fiance he can relax."

There's no need to unleash your boyfriend on me. There's nothing he has to be afraid of. I'm not desperately trying to catch your attention wishing you'd call me this very second. Don't you think this is a much too foolish thing for someone to do, even for an exceptionally foolish person like me?

I'm gonna be angering a lot of people with this letter, having more questioning my intentions. But my intentions are as clear as the words I write here.

Time and again, I wish only for your good health and happiness. And I do hope you're in that state right now.

Till I see that forever warm smile and ever bright eyes on the streets, you take care, friend.

love,
Me.

The Blinding Dark

2008-04-22T17:16:00.003+08:00

My arms spread wide
My fingers yearn for touch
The black blinds me
This journey through the dark

The echoes hit me back
My shouts go even deeper
The silence binds me
The loudness I crave further

Show me the light
This tunnel seem endless
For I am a slave to the dark...
...A slave to the dark.

Somebody please save me
Please take me away
How long till I can see
Till the dark fades away

in the end

2008-04-18T22:23:00.002+08:00

So yeah.. Yesterday meant the end of part 1 of my SATS arrival/departure course...

Its has been a joy being in class with these batch of people but cliched as it might sound, everything has its end.

For example, I found a really good friend in Lydia that most people think we're together. I have great lunching partners with Lydia, Anne, Faridah, Hudah and last, not the least but surely the cutest, Humairah. Yeah... But i'm not saying that the rest isn't at all fun. Good Luck yeah guys...

I'll see you people around.

a guy, a whole lotta girls and a very small space

2008-04-09T22:01:00.004+08:00

I promised photos, i give you photos...

Imran and the girls.. (from front: humaira, huda, endah, priya, eetheng, faridah, siti, lydia& me!

The girls deciding how to pose.

Imran & Lydia

the 2 chilli padis... humaira and huda

Sham & me goofing around

Bonding with the reflections

The 3 Divas

Lunch Break

Yeah yeah.. and so this is how it is at work..

horseballs and brinjols

2008-04-09T07:13:00.003+08:00

goozness! Its the 9th already...

Lotsa things happened in within the first 9 days of April... Seriously.

I started work with SATS officially on the 1st. Got great batch-mates. Cool people, or might i say chicks cos there's only two guys among 24 girls. Oh come on... Don't judge me like that.

Got orientated around the airport (yeah, like i needed some.. huak huak) and got to know my new colleagues.
AND I LOST MY ZIPPO!!! shit...!

Ok ok...

From then till now I've been attending classes, religiously i might add, at Cargo Complex. Boring, but still, essential.
And why am i up so early today? Cos I'm up learning for a test today. Yeah...
Do you know how long has it been since I sat for any freaking test? Eons boys and girls, Eons...

And yeah before i forget, BAND UPDATE!

my band just inducted this kick-ass drummer Ipan got hold of from some forum over the Internet. Oh my, can he play, even up to a point where we thought he was too good for us. But heck, we a full band now.

Now we gotta find a nice-sounding name.. help?

yeah yeah...
Gonna be posting pics of my new colleagues soon. (tomorrow in fact if I'm not too lazy. hurhur..)

till then, signing off!

extra! extra!

2008-03-31T00:12:00.002+08:00

Yeah yeah... This song was written on the spot at Pasir Ris Park during our out-of-the-jamming studio session. A sappy-sounding sound, showing our soft sides and actually having the 4 of us (excluding the drummer cos we don't have one) agreeing that this song is us.

well... here goes.. the raw and original version on Again

Again

Passing time through the night
Dead silence fills the sound tonight,
Again.
Listen to this soul
Find my way back, again.

The streets light up my nights
Lighting up my path
Again
Its killing me deep inside
Breaking me up, slow

Oh god what has time (Oh god, what has time)
Done to me?
Oh god what has time (Oh god, what has time)
Made me be?
Oh god what has time (Oh god, what has time)
Done to me?
Oh god where
Have you led me?

Crystal balls don't help
My future uncertain, again.
Listen to this soul
Keep me alive, again.

****--****
lyrics witten by - Higen
Music written by - Pet, Ipan, Pharil

coming to your friendly radio stations soon.. real soon.

yeah yeah!

worn out

2008-03-26T17:02:00.001+08:00

What is this that's keeping me awake?
Is it just fair that your scent still lingers?
Is it right that i must still fight?
This is not what i need, this is just not right.

This needs to end
This needs to cease
I'm tired, i'm done
I'm worn out, i'm done.

Can't you hear me?
Cos I'm is yelling out.
Killing you i don't want to
I just want you out.

This needs to end
This needs to cease
I'm tired, i'm done
I'm worn out, i'm done.

dipshits and dipsticks...

2008-03-26T07:27:00.003+08:00

Hiya everyone... *dorky Barney tone*

well well... looks like I'll not be going off to KL with Mir at all. My GrandDaddy is now in hospital just recovering from his hernia operation. Me being the only one currently jobless and school-less means i volunteer myself to every step where my help is needed. and yah.. the other cousins are not helping.

I spent the whole day yesterday at SGH A&E ward along with Mommy and an uncle trying to get my GrandDaddy a fast checkup and get him warded... But it seems that a quarter of Singapore's population decided to get sick and rush down to SGH cos the other hospitals A&E was too full...

seriously.. kimek, orang kalau dah sakit tunggu lama2 makin lagi sakit siak. Plus, they had this stupid final yr med students' practical exams that some beds were occupied for the sake of this. err... hello... go get your own beds... and the had the cheek to write on the notices they put up on the wall, "your care will not be compromised" so, "where're our beds, bitch?" Haha...

Now i gotta sleep.. toodles..

good nyte.. err.. i mean morning. good morning.

My Band

2008-03-25T00:26:00.002+08:00

Thats (from right) Higen, Pet, Pharil, An, Ipan...

Yeah2!!

feel the lazy...

2008-03-24T23:36:00.004+08:00

Look, this is really tiring...

People coming up to me and telling me to update.. Dunnoe uh like very the lazy.

Anyways, SATS is being an ass not calling and all. Lucky got the $10/hr shipping line jop. But that one also tgk kapal. irritating noe wait wait...

Btw, I'm supposed to join Mir go KL this coming weekend but due to the lack of vessels = no income generated, I might as well forget about the whole thing. *crossing fingers* I really wanna go ley.

OKOK... Besides that point, I'm in a band now. A rock band. Gave my old campmate Pet a call, a coupla weeks ago, and he told me his band needed a vocalist. All i needed was an invitation and i was down at the next jam session before you could even say anything. really... anything. huak huak..

The band doesn't have a nice-sounding name yet... but there's

Imran - Vocalist
Pet & Ipan - Guitarists
Pharil - Bassist
An - Drummer

I got a kick-ass band. When Pet asked me along, i was asking him what the played. He told me they were doing a cover of Ozzy's Crazy Train. Other than that its all originals... i think i picked up quite well and yey! Abang got indicted. haha....

One problem though, our drummer lari. I mean, i don't blame him cos he's got two jobs and i think he want to kawin. hahaha... but he was a hell of a drumma. He was Armin's drummer back in their black metal days in NERRAKA.

So this is a notice to everyone..
If there's a drummer out there, wants to play in a fun-serious-kick-ass band, do drop me an email, or sms or call... hp no:93889040.

PS: Sorry for the boringness in the entry... its been a long time. Mcm out of touch gitulo..

Well well... taking care ya everyone.

...

2008-02-26T04:42:00.000+08:00

I'm a movement by myself.
But I'm a force when we're together.
Mami I'm good all by myself.
But baby you, you make me better...

goodbyes...

2008-02-26T04:21:00.003+08:00

I resigned from my job today... Sure it wasn't nice to say goodbye, but somehow it felt like a relief.
I like the job, enjoy the company of the people but circumstances forbids. It has come to the point where most of the time I'd find myself worn out by the time I reach my workplace... Well then..

But i got a new job! huak huak... Daddy pulled a few strings here and there and i got a job at THE Changi Airport doing passenger services. Hahaha.... Alhamdulillah rezekiku murah. I'm gonna go sleep now cos gotta meet baby in a while.

Sheesh!

G'night you boozers..

Ape la sangat kau tu...

2008-02-02T01:17:00.000+08:00

Batu karang di tepi lautan

Batu longkang di tepi jalan

-yuan andre

haha... mepek...

well.. more pics of work...

Bedroom Rock....

2008-01-30T19:26:00.001+08:00

I have issues...
1) Has our society really achieved a gracious society status, working well towards it or are we're still waayy too far off?

I mean, I have see to much of an instance to have actually realised that its actually asking too much for graciousness, courtesy and kindness. As the norm goes, respect your elders. Do the elders respect you? Do the old ladies rushing to board the train give space for you to alight first before go on to their ongoing everyday struggle to get a seat? Do they have to actually rush? They wouldn't have to if only 85% of younger "gracious" citizens would give up their seat for a worthier occupant. I'm just like this cos I'm just a regular public transport user. And I'm confused. heh...

2) 100% of girls are confused

Alai and I had a discussion while seating down smoking on the rooftop of one particular vessel. As the heading goes, 100% of girls are confused. Really, if you think about it hard enough.
OK. Lets divide it to 2 parts.

Part 1 - For those in a relationship
1.1 How many times have couples had too big a tiff cos when the guy asks, "Where you do feel like eating?"
The girl answers "I don't know.. Up to You."
And when you suggest a place that your stomach, more than your brain, wants to go they give you this I'm-not-sure-and-i-kinda-disagree look.
See... Confusion at its best.

And how many times have you told a white lie... or heck, a lie when your girlfriend probes on you and she would believe you and take it wholesale. But when you really simply, honestly, sincerely and from the heart answer a simple question, they doubt you and give you this don't-you-dare-to-even-think-about-it look...
And then chills go down your spine like YOU are guilty.
See! Confusion again.
Shit... Now because of your own confusion, you make us confused.

Part 2 - For the girls contemplating to go into a relationship.

You've been going out with 3 guys. All different in their own way, attractive in their own right.
guy no. 1 = not handsome + money + bike + bad sex + small dick
guy no. 2 = Handsome + moderate income + public transport + pleasurable sex + big dick
guy no. 3 = OK looking + broke + treats you good + teeny weeny bit better than guy no. 2 sex + average-sized dick

So all 3 want to be with you. But lo and behold, another guy comes along. Too new to classify... But strangely enough, more often than not, about 75% of you will jump to guy no. 4's ship. Why? I don't know, and you girls would definitely not know. Again...Why? Cos y'all just confused.

Ha ha... Pardon my mild mannered French. I'm just being random.

Apologies

2008-01-18T19:15:00.001+08:00

Excuse me for the dreadful lack of updates... I guess life must be really fulfilling to be blogging. ehekz..

But seriously, although new happenings in life are far in between but the present state of life is enough. Been spending a whole lotta time with Fatin, go here, go there... and Adibah got the pox. huak huak!!

And yes! Work! Been fine... I have the complete team to work with. We are the Muchachos! There's Hair the cheip, Abg Zul the Senior Remaja, Alai the abang2 tahu, Andre the Evo Fanatic, and me!yeah...

well... thats just Alai, Andre and me doing dorky stuff while waiting for the vessels to dock. You should see what we do to the Camry's on board...

till the next time... anyways, does anybody have jobs available... cos i'm thinking of switching jobs.
till then, tata!

harpie neuw yah!

2008-01-03T16:38:00.000+08:00

harpie neuw yah!!!

that is all i have to say. hehe...

the note on my door...

2007-12-28T14:37:00.000+08:00

to whoever:
i'm tired... Could i just lie down and not have you disturb me for a good 3 days?

thanks eh...

Dear God...

2007-12-26T15:24:00.000+08:00

Dear God, the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away.
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again...

2007-12-16T09:38:00.000+08:00

I wrote this piece a coupla months ago. Again, just in case I run into any other unnecessary unpleasantries, this has got nothing to do with anyone.

Heartstrings

How do I say this?
My mind keep playing games
Pictures of you running in my head
Scenes of us racing through the memories

It was barbs laced with honey
Sweet but sucked the life out of me
You walked out with my soul
Where should I go to find the me of old?

Listening to songs
The times we would hum it out loud
Watching TV through the phone
And pleasant wakeup calls on Saturday mornings.

I couldn’t give you enough
But I’m sure I did my part
I hope he makes you laugh
The laugh I adore and love

2007-12-08T10:06:00.000+08:00

Ok... I am officially starting to break down resulting from the endless hours of being at work so as for this long-awaited update, there will be no update. Hehe...

But in its place is something I haven't done in quite a while...

For you, and me

It’s just twisted how this is
Life just brought you in with its tides and waves
Uninvited but not unwelcomed
Unceremonious but not unbecoming

Don’t push me away,
If there’s no need for me to leave.
Tell me your troubles
Share me your pain.

How do I tell you this?
How do I make you understand?
Do I have to get down on my knees?
Just to prove just what I am.

You be my arrow,
I’ll be your bow
I’ll even find that pot of gold
At the end of the rainbow

Look me in the eyes
Tell me you see lies
Or hopeless hope
Leaving you in dire

How do I tell you this?
How do I make you understand?
Do I have to get down on my knees?
Just to show you how in love with you I am…

-Imran

tippy toes

2007-11-12T18:20:00.000+08:00

Thank god Mira finally uploaded these much awaited pics.. It was that one night I went karaoke-ing with Mir, Lia and my brother, Farhan. Twas a lota fun. Abeh look like power rangers.
huak huak...

Ade macam boy/girl band eh?

Anyways boys and girls, seriously, honestly, really, life is for me is very the plateau-icly mundane. Emotionally still. Somehow I am thankful for the absence of a huge-ass, life-sized roller coaster sequence of events in my life. But then, life has really taken a decelerating notion after mid this year. Thank God for Fatin and Mir for adding the much needed spice when i do really need the most. I love you both, in different ways, of course. Heh...

Being true to myself, a person of random topics, i think my body is breaking down.

The odd and really long hours of being at work. Non-stop chaotic amounts of cars. Its really taken a toll on me. I mean, is it really worth it just for a measly amount of just over $1700? I know, benda yang halal tu tk selalu didapati dgn mudah, but sometimes i think this is too painstaking. I am a personal fan of the saying, when the going gets tough, the tough fucks off, but here I am typing this down as though it is a losing fight, a needless struggle, a waste of time ultimately. But i refuse to give up. Not with the support I have around me.

Life will hit you. You and I know that when it hits you, boy it hits you hard. Real hard. But what makes you a man is how you pick yourself up when you're already down and move forward. How you keep picking yourself up when life throws shit onto you. Pick yourself up and move forward. Pick yourself up and move forward. Rather than have me look at you slumber into what slump life decides to live you in. Cos when that happens, no point pointing fingers at anyone or anything, because the blames on you, kid.

and another one

2007-11-05T21:40:00.000+08:00

bak kata pepatah pussy cat dolls, don't you wish your boyfren hensem like me...

huak huak...
*bored*

King Nothing

2007-11-03T19:06:00.001+08:00

I wish I may
I wish I might
Have this wish I wish tonight
I want that star
I want it now
I want it all and I don't care how

Careful what you wish
Careful what you say
Careful what you wish
You may regret it
Careful what you wish
You just might get it

Then it all crashes down
And you break your crown
And you point your finger
But there's no one around

Just want one thing
Just to play the king
But the castle's crumbled
And you're left with just a name

Where's your crown, King Nothing?

Rexall

2007-10-21T14:52:00.000+08:00

I'm running out of room
Don't make me say it
There is nothing left in me
Don't make me
Too much for hotel rooms
Don't make me say it
Sleeping pills don't make me

There is no love left in your eyes
There is love between your thighs
Roll over say goodnight
A morning dog howl in the street
Cup filled tiny hands and feet
Napkin in the drain

There is no love left in your eyes
There is love between your thighs
Roll over say goodnight
I've had enough of feeling sick
You've had enough of feeling sick
The sugar never helps

There is no love left in your eyes
There is love between your thighs

Taulah tempat ni sibuk, Tapi takmo jadi asshole uh!

2007-10-18T03:56:00.000+08:00

Yeah, and so, between the Hari Raya post and the previous one, nothing much happened. It has been, in no particular order, work, Fatin, Mira, family, friends, home, sleep.

And so we jump to the few days before Raya...

As so all of you know, I work as a key personnel for a stevedoring company at Pasir Panjang. Being part of that company enables me to, err... jamah-jamah the new cars that come to Singapore for local shipment or transshipment. Well, of all the cars that I've driven so far... This must be the icing on th cake. The Audi R8. Really, a piece of art...

Huak Huak! Yeah yeah... Big deal?! Bluegh!.... Well, whatever bitch!

Anyways, the fewest days before Raya, I went all the way to Woodlands to accompany Fatin to satisfy her ever-burning-since-when desire to rebond her hair. The lady who did her hair looked like the cookie monster from Sesame Street. Even her I'm-not-smiling-or-frowning look was terrifying. Mak oi! Cam nak makan orang siol...

Fatin sometime before

Fatin during the rebonding
*KAKAK MUKE TAKYA CRAMP UH!!*

Fatin Sayang after the whole thing
PS: Thats the lady i was talking about... Eee... Scary..

Bak kate pepatah Ice Cube, makan mee soto takde ayam, tak sedap.

Hello world!!

2007-10-15T17:37:00.001+08:00

OMG! Its raya already... Sorry for the late updates.

Anyways, to all readers, muslim or not, SELAMAT HARI RAYA. Maaf zahir batin. Kalau ade silap salah, terkasar bahasa dalam hidup yang singkat ini, tolong maafkanlah.

In Imran's english, it sounds like this...
HAPPY HARI RAYA! Sorry inside out. If i did anything wrong or if got say anything wrong accidentally in this short life, please the very sorry.

Anyways, eidul-fitr was a quiet affair. After morning prayers, I went straight back to sleep. Only start to jln2. Soon after at around 8.30 pm I had to leave the convoy to go to work. Sad right? Anyways i shot pictures with my handphone and camera but I can't get to the camera as of right
now...

Baby sister & I

Smallest cousin in the family & I

Farhan, Fakhrurazi, Haziq

Simaa & Nabilah

The younger brother, Firdaus

The makciks berceloteh

Haha... Hope your eidul-fitr went smooth... g'day!

2007-10-02T08:56:00.000+08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates people...
Been busy at work and now I am down with really sore and swelling eyes that Fatin Sayang is constantly laughing at me for.

Well this time round, Idul-fitr would be a wee bit different from the past two years.
This time I have somebody new to share it with. I am all excited, yeah!
No, no... No matching Hari Raya outfits for me and significant other, but I am really looking forward to celebrating it with her, showing her wat Raya means in Imran's world.

World, in due time, you shall come to know who this wonderful, cute, sweet, and absolutely, stunningly, beautiful woman is.
To those few who actually have a clue, you don't actually need to be a rocket scientist to figure this out , do you?

till the next boring post,

Au revoir!

Hurrah!

2007-09-24T15:59:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to me... *Jeng jeng jeng*
Happy Birthday to me... *Jeng jeng jeng*
Happy Birthday to imran... *Jeng jeng jeeeeng*
Happy Birthday to me... *Jeng jeng jeng*

Thanks for the wishes everybody. All are truly appreciated. (",)

Kekasih Gelapku

2007-09-24T15:52:00.000+08:00

For that special someone,

Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku...

Ku tahu ku takkan selalu ada untukmu
Disaat engkau merindukan diriku
Ku tahu ku takkan bisa memberikanmu waktu
Yang panjang dalam hidupku

Yakinlah bahwa engkau adalah cintaku
Yang ku cari selama ini dalam hidupku
Dan hanya padamu ku berikan sisa cintaku
Yang panjang dalam hidupku...

-Ungu

Apologize

2007-09-20T10:52:00.000+08:00

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say
But I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait... You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around and say..
That it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance,
Take a fall, take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue
And you say sorry like an angel,
Heavens not the thing for you,
But I'm afraid...
It's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'm holding your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground...

feewieet!

2007-09-20T09:07:00.001+08:00

I think I know what I need...

I think, I need a new hobby. Something new and exciting, or picking up on something i left behind, err, 5 yrs ago?

I used to spend whole hours outdoors, but well, for a good chunk of time spent "outdoors" between 2002 till now, was spent in a 2.1m x 2.1m x 1.85m tent at various beach locations in eastern Singapore, namely East Coast and Pasir Ris Park. It was no doubt, exciting, for me and the then-significant other. Not one to disclose too much, I always enjoyed a good workout. *winks winks*

Been wanting to go kayaking... I used to kayak so often that water kinda became second nature, hence, the extremely contrasted darkened skin compared to the other people living in this house.

I know, I know! i could start travelling again... Yeah yeah, life pretty much stopped at 2002. Not anybody's fault though. I want to see the world, not that i haven't start to.

Sorry to waste your time reading this entry, but work has been totally hectic, mainly the reason I don't update my blog as much... the other small part is because... This one is a secret i'm not able to disclose yet. Anyway, where was i? Yeah yeah... work. Working in the shipping line is exhausting and unpredictable. There are ships full of cars coming ad going every single week.
Question: Don't people get tired of buying cars?

Well, without them I might not even have a job. Oh well.. With what I got going on with work and stuff, I dun think I have the time for a new hobby or go traveling...

Hehe...

Thanks for dropping by ya!

TGIF

2007-09-12T16:42:00.001+08:00

Yeah yeah!

Last Friday was a TGIF day fer me. Finally got to go out with Fatin Sayang. Headed down to Vivocity for a real date. Do you know how long it has been since i went on a real date?
Yeah, that's how sad life is.

Well, first and foremost, 1408 was a stupid movie... Had dinner at Secret Recipe and Starbucks' Hazelnut Hot Chocolate is the works.

the puma and the rhino.. pretty uh? BLING BLING!

sweetness *beams*

posing maut with Ben n Jerry's

Last pic of the day, darling...

Huak huak, Imran had a blast!

too good for ya, huh?

2007-09-02T10:01:00.000+08:00

Hello!!!

I just got home from the GB pit at east coast... It was more of a reunion for the GreenBench crew back from my TP days. Man... Nearly everyone was there. Should've been a chalet thingy-thingy. It would've been soo much more fun.

Nevertheless, with the GB core around, life is never a dull moment. Especially with Najip and Gang with their usual antics along with Yazid's s-oo-per loud "EH DIER UH!!" wah! kecoh beb!
Gonna upload pics soon...

Anyways, had breakfast at Mac all the way at Ang Mo Kio with Fatin Sayang after picking her up from work on an early Friday morning. After that, realising we had nowhere to go to, we decided window shopping at ang mo kio hub before realising that not even a quarter of the shops have opened... Gerek eh window shopping pagi2 buta.
some pics taken at her void deck.. alah... semer posing same je...

She refused earlier photos, hence the absence of more interesting ones.

I headed home cos Fatin Sayang had to have her beauty sleep... Met Mir at around 3+ after she finished work cos i needed some retail therapy.

Got a trim for my already thick crown and i got a brand new watch!!
OMG its a beauty lah.. A black beauty...

Yeah yeah...

till next time...

nenek kebayan...

2007-08-26T23:19:00.001+08:00

Hello...
OMG i just have to put this up..

this is Nur Fatin aka Misq Kirei aka Fatin sayang...

This is Fatin sayang turned nenek kebayan

Thanks to my dearest sister... Nabilah..

since we're on this, i chanced upon this pic... funny...

2007-08-26T16:10:00.000+08:00

sweet smiles, contagious laughters
suspecting looks and cautious stares
see how life misleads you
into disbelieving reality

funny how you looked at me
and how you scorn at the sight of me now
i can't tell you how to do it,
but, for god's sakes, do it right!

tipdrill....

2007-08-21T17:24:00.000+08:00

I was just wondering....

If your right leg was Christmas, and your left is New Year's... Could you fit me in between the holidays?

2007-08-20T13:01:00.002+08:00

To whoever that feels the heat after reading this...

I just realised that actually, time don't change a person. You are what you are. When u sense a change in you, you're actually just stuffing that humiliating and embarrassing glitch in yourself at the back of your conscience, hoping and praying that it'll never get exposed cos you don't wanna go back there or be back there. You are just covering those horns growing on your forehead assuming, in time, through time, people won't notice. The world is round, what goes around, comes around...

I'm sorry dear someone... Going by what I've heard, time or circumstance, or even people, hasn't changed who you are inside. That little imp on you, that little itch on your back, it hasn't gone away, has it?

Some things just don't change . Money makes you look at people you initially thought you despise. Cars make you like them even more... And i haven't gone to the bottles of liquors part. Re-assess yourself. Trust me darling, you need it.

Did you change? Have you changed?
Many around don't think so. Many still think its just an act to get you some security. Securities might just bite back at you one day.. Just like i did.

I hope you're reading this. It might just knock some sense into your thick, made-of-god-knows-what skull of yours. Good luck ya!

My Brown-eyed Dream

2007-08-20T11:03:00.002+08:00

Don’t turn away, listen to me
To these words this heart has to say
All my life, I’ve been waiting
For this romance to come true

It’s getting harder to breathe
Your absence rob me of my sanity
Keeps me feeling homeless
Cos home is in your arms

I wait for night to come
And wish it'll never end
Cos I only feel you in my dreams
Awake, I yearn for your reigns
The double vision of you lingers
Are you really out there,
my brown-eyed dream?

2007-08-19T21:13:00.000+08:00

Courage isn't the absence of fear. It is the presence of fear, yet, the will to go on.

In a whole lot of sense, we are all courageous.

Listen Listen!

2007-08-18T21:26:00.000+08:00

Imran is a dull boy... Saturday night and he is at home, tucking into bed cos he got work tomorrow morning.

Help?

Misq Kirei is at work and that "Gendeng" still not following me to the pit. Follow k?

Help!

eh sorry la kakak!

2007-08-15T20:27:00.001+08:00

Huak huak....
Ok ok, sorry Mir and everybody else... So, u wanted pictures? I give you pictures.

On National Day, after spending the whole day and the night before at Mir's, we went out to nowhere. We really had nothing to do and nowhere to go.
So we took the train, supposedly to meet Safrina at city hall... till Mir saw this dreadlocked, shaggy-looking abang2, with his Bob Marley El-famillia swagger.

" Im, I have to get his number," she said. Seeing how that abang2 guy was deep in his slumber in the train, we tailed him all the way... All the way to Chua Chu Kang thank you.

And so, on the way home we took a few photos.

This is Mira and Imran...

This is Mira through the lenses...

and this is Imran through the lenses....

Yeah yeah....

and I rented a Subaru Impreza for Yunus' sisters wedding during the weekend and abang2 also step hensem uh dgn kereta...

Mir, wait the rest i email to you uh k.... Nabilah is bugging me for the comp...

Fly Booty, Fly

2007-08-08T10:24:00.000+08:00

aiyoh... dun laugh uh.

She looks like Kelly, coming from Destiny
She’s so amazing, she drives me crazy
Shakin’ her booty
Can't help but work her this way.
Could I get her a martini?
Could i get her to start talkin’?
Make her comfy in her own skin.

In goes the liquor,
She spills all her beans
Like how she likes her men,
What she wears to bed
And how she wanna get busy
The way she gives her head.

I wanna rock that body
Can't take my eyes off that booty
I wanna take her home with me
Get all freaky and give her all my lovin'.

Conqueror

2007-07-30T21:35:00.001+08:00

So the very sorry ya to all you loyal readers...
Haha! like real only....

So far, its been fun at working at where i do, driving BMWs and Alfa Romeos...
woohhoo... driving in the BMW X4 and the Alfa Romeo Spider is the works. Not to mention the Porsche Carrera GT3. Huak Huak! Giler babi siak!

Had a wonderful Friday with Adibah + Yoonoos - Fatin - Nisha, although it started out shitty... But thanks ya Shida for tagging along. *winks winks*
and girls, we're going out next week!

Actually, i have nothing more to say.. dumb right?
till i return with more less-than-wonderful stories to tell you....

Signing out!

Big guys cry like babies, fall like tons of bricks. Hard, real hard.

2007-07-21T17:46:00.000+08:00

OMG!

I love my new job. Imagine, driving a brand new left-hand driven Mitsubishi Lancer Evo 9!
Haha! Awesome...

okok.... altogether i drove 8 kind of cars...

1. 4-door Pajero
2. 2-door Pajero
3. Mistubishi Grandis
4. Evo 9 with Brembo disc brakes and sport rims.. wahaha!
5. Mistubishi Lancer 07
6. The new Mistubishi Lancer EX GT
7. Honda Stream RSZ 07
8. Toyota Camry 07

Once i went up the ramp and saw the Evo, there was no way i was gonna have anybody else drive the delicious red Evo go to anybody else. Sitting inside, i was trying my hardest to keep a straight face. But i can't help but plaster a wide beaming smile on my face. Sorry ah if i seem the jakon-ist but sial ah... Tkde chance siak nk naik ni mcm nye kerete kat luar. the moment i went on the yard, i was squealing like how Mir would. ngyahngyah!
And i get $1500 to do this? haha... Gerek per...

hope i get to drive the Merc with that 4.5 litre engine tonight.
***************************

Nisha's coming home tomorrow.. Yey! Just in case you're reading this Nisha...
AKU RINDU KAU LAH BODOH! haha... that felt a whole lotta good.

till whenever, ciaoz...

When the going gets tough, the tough fucks off!

2007-07-19T22:44:00.001+08:00

Hihi....!!

Sorry long time no update ya.

Anyways, sometime last week had to send my brother to the hospital cos stupid idiot here tried to act hero and do bicycle kick playing sepak takraw. Because of that he fractured the right side of his pelvic bone. Idiot! Habis die kene tengking dgn mak aku. He got a painkiller jab but turned out he was allergic to it. Here's how he looked like within the first hour.

This is wat he looks like...

This is how he looked after that jab.

By the third hour, you couldn't even see his eyes and he had mucus drooling down his nose. Eww!!! Yeah.. I wanted to take more photos but he hid away even before i could take any. Idiot.

been doing nothing recently but yesterday I went down to Pasir freakin Panjang to go apply for a job and got it! hey i don't mind the distance from one Pasir to another but who would wanna pay me $1500 basic? huak huak....

After that Mira, Adibah and I went down to the airport to sent Nisha who's off to Penang, alone, to attend the World Music Festival. Kesian sey my lil strawberry. Wish i could follow you but i got work la sayang. And yah, I miss you too!

Adibah's friend, Fel, and later, Yunus, go with us lepak2 at this kedai kopi at Elias Mall. Amidst the talking, laughing, smoking and drinking coffee, Mir was busy looking at pictures in Adibah's phone. Skali she found two pics with ghostly presence. Here's one of em... (Err... Don't mind the Jim Beam bottle).. notice sombody standing behind us and the blow-up shows a face and fingers... EEE!!! Haha... Good Day!

hmm....

2007-07-13T17:52:00.000+08:00

Nampak-nampkanye kita ade penkritik di kalangan manusia sejagat.

One thing i get is, people always have a say in watever actions you might take. Take for example, my poetic tragedies.

If i were to be writing something that is so filled with anger, some people might just say
"Hey! This guy is soo angry at the world."

if i write about something sad, they'll go "Oh my GOD! He is so pathetic! I ain't going nowhere near him."

But if i start to write something step mcm jiwang2 gitu, ade je lalat2 who will come and say
"Hey i think this guy is still not over his ex." Bla bla bla...

You don't know me, you don't come and act like you do. You knowAnd yah, to the minahs of the world united, thank you for trying to remind me although i don't actually need any of you pathetic beings to. I don't think i am that good-looking. Never said i was either. Neither have i mentioned i was cute, sexy or anything that has got to do with making my balls grow so big they could probably burst.

Let me get this on record. I've long forgotten about the ex and she's been left wayyy behind kept in the memory drawer. I think I've seen the ex grow up to a substantial degree to know that with her, words don't make a difference, actions does for you all to assume I'm trying my pathetic best to win her back. And guess wat? I'm doing nothing to do that. Abeh mane aku nak letak iisha, tul tk Adibah?
Aku bukan perosak rumah tangga orang. Aku ade kenal orang-orang macam gitu and its not good to be one.

Tak tau lah ape korang nak cakap, tapi tu korang nye pasal ah eh.
haha...
cheers!

wat the? heh!

2007-07-12T15:35:00.000+08:00

I don't miss you, I don't need you.
Don't prasan jubo and think that those poetic tragedies i have right here in my blog is all about you. Tkmo ah ingatkan setiap kali aku step jiwang je pasal kau, aku step jiwang je pasal kau.. bluegh.. peh-leasse.. Tolong lah tkmo jadik mcm budak tongong. Memandangkan aku tulis pasal 4 tahun je kau pikiak aku tulis pasal kau.. tolonglah diyanah tkde mase ah. err.. excuse me, 3 1/2 if u want me to act all childish and all accountable ok. EEE!!
Ladies and gentlemen, truth be told, I am pathetic, but not that pathetic!

And about the whole thing you not happy with him, and how your face looks different "tell me if i'm wrong. I don't think i'm wrong" bullshit, well.. it came from a few people and they came to me me.
I happen to one day pass through my friend's friendster account and saw the hari raya pic that, i copied and pasted and posted a few days back, and i just had to see the difference. I kinda saw it so i typed out what i feel. Dgr2 skrng dah salah blog pasal orng lain. If the word "babygirl" makes you squirm then i'll have it changed. Happy? Or do you want me to delete the whole post? Not a chance lah babe...

I am happy you are with him cos he makes you happy and you respect him and stuff... I respect that. I haven't once tried to pry you away from him, have i? Its gonna just be wasting my time and i'd lose my dignity as a man, or a boy, depending on whoever yang tgh judge aku ni... Buat ape? buang peluh, buang masa, bikin air muka aku jatuh je, fighting a losing battle. Come on lah Diy, you would agree with me. I'm not that dumb. And i wish you and Dan good luck in everything. Kalau jodoh korang naik pelamin tu, hope you all get there. Cos you make Diy happy. And then again Diy would come and say in her blog something between the lines of... err... Frankly i don't quite give a damn about what Diy thinks.

And i'm not crooning and crying at night just to fall asleep, just because you're not here anymore. Fuck! I might just die due to lack of sleep one day if i do that.
Just to let you know, I am enjoying life. so...
Cheers!

And by the way, aku rase aku nk kene tulis disclaimer ah kat blog aku ni.
so here it is...

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Not Now, Not Ever

2007-07-11T15:11:00.000+08:00

You dropped me like a pack of nothing
Take for granted I’ll always be there
And now I see you kneeling, begging me
To start again, like how we were

What makes you think I’ll let you in again
And let you use me and abuse me
Trying to make me believe in those lies
Trying so hard for me

Now I see you all alone,
Left behind by the one you left me for
I would've taken you in by the hand
I would've held you so tight
I would've comforted you all night
I would've, I could've
But I won't fall for it again

jeez!

2007-07-11T03:05:00.000+08:00

Was going through Seri's frenster profile when i came across a certain picture dated around 2 years ago during raya...

Now babygirl dun get me wrong. I see you in pictures now and i get to see this picture of then..
Can't help but notice an absence of a glow on your or a sparkle from your eyes.
Well, at least that's what i think. Don't think I'll ever know what you think.
Tell me if I'm wrong. Well, i think I'm not.

aiyah... Got so much to think one meh? Anyone beg to differ?

Not Like Me

2007-07-10T04:41:00.000+08:00

I know you think
You left me for something better,
Leaving behind 4 years of smiles and tears
I know those times I didn’t treat you well
You deserve to be with someone else
I’m just a man, I made my mistakes
But give me a chance
A chance to explain

Help me understand
How could you throw it all away?
Could he love you like I can?
Cos I’d give up the world for you,
Putting nothing else in the way
I’m begging you for another try
Could I have that chance?
Why? Now tell me…

Does he do the things all nice?
Could he do it like I can?
Does he hold you tight to sleep?
Does he tuck you in at night?
Or, does he just rolls over?
You can wish it wasn’t true
But he can’t do it like I do.

Does he know what you like to wake up to?
Breakfast in bed or MacDonald’s till late?
Hot chocolate to cold Green tea?
Egg sandwiches to go, or
Just laze around in bed till whenever?
You can wish it wasn’t true
But he can’t love you like I do.

ticking tocking

2007-07-09T16:28:00.000+08:00

Anyways, had a blast hanging out with Mir, Yunus and Adibah at Pasir Ris... Followed with the usual till-morning talkshit sessions with Mir under her block. Shit, it was a whole lotta fun and laughter with a little serious twist in parts. ingatkn berok! haha...
Thanks guys for a simple but fun time. Had actually wanted to take pictures with Mir's camera but Adibah and Yunus jual mahal.. so much for allergic to camera. Right! Banyak lah u nye allergic. Gambar pt hp pe berjuta!
okok... dun wanna say anything more. i'm gonna be deadmeat tonight just because i said these few lines. hehe

So... I'm gonna be very the tk tau malu here. Some people I know tell me I could write, and I should write regularly. I mean poetry of those sorts. Being a typical egoistic alpha male yg tkle kene puji, I wanna try this. well, at least try. so tell me wat you think when I do write ok? thanks the million! Ok here goes nothing!

One More Day

Here we go again
Same thing, different day.
Same old fight,
Looking like no end

Its no more rainbows and butterflies
How do we open their eyes?
To this beautiful thing we share
How do we make them believe in us?

This shouldn't end this way
The spark in this soul would die

You seem so far away
Life don't seem no easier without you this way
but i won't say no to today
or even one more day.

This could take all night
Fighting to make things right
my love could never die
even with all their lies

Kissing you means the world to me
Holding you means life
If today is the end
Find me tonight, outside on my knees
Begging for just one more day

So, this is written for my brother whose love for his girl is for real. I've seen them going through a lot for each other, esp through race issues. So this goes out to them.

****************************************
till tomorrow, or the day after, or the day after that, or the day after that, or the day after that... Aargh! Whenever la! hehe....

Sense You

2007-07-07T15:48:00.001+08:00

Listen...
To the whisper of the breeze
Telling you to love me
Begging you to let go
And forgive yourself

Speak...
The words I've been wanting to hear
The music to my ears
The fulfillment of my soul

See...
How i make you smile
The way i look at you
And how you make my day

Smell...
You in the morning
Your scent all over my shirt
Envy, me.

Touch...
Touch me
How it is like in my dreams
Like how bodies would intertwine,
Engulfed in passion

Make me regain my senses
I can't seem to make it out
This dizzy maze of thoughts
not letting me free

Help me regain my senses
You know which buttons to press
Which dial to turn

Make me, help me.

Ain't it now?

2007-07-06T19:31:00.000+08:00

Due to overwhelming requests, day in day out, from my die-hard-fans, i have decided to blog today!
huak huak! (macam paham jek aku)
So, this goes out to the real fans out there *ala ala rock star buat concert besar2*

Like the last entry, life has been pretty mundane. Well at least in my book. Was supposed to head down to Penang for a surprise party for Mir but with the rest of the traveling party opting out last minute, plan hangus terbakar dikebumikan tanpa bernisan. Haha... Ape je lah kau ni im.

But as soon as th GST money went thru, i went out!
Went out to town with Alexis and we ended up going to Rouge. Also because it was Jon Molina and Krueger's last night there. *sob sob*
Pas tu, of all people i could ever meet in a club, i met my cousin, Abg Long aka Shahlizan, and wife. Mak oi havoc siak!
Photos of that night to be uploaded soon.

Anyways, if not for the Penang trip cancellation, i wouldn't have found my soon-to-be wife *ehem ehem*
korang nk tgk gambar die??!! Hah amek kau!

my li'l strawberry (eee! prasan nye aku!)

Amaciam cun tak? Mesti ah cun! Cun pun tk seCun die! Alersmamak, kate Im punye! hehe... *ehem ehem*
Habislah aku malam ni punye conference session.
And guys, i had fun last night driving around. Lain kali i amek u dari keje lak k sayang... U bley duduk kat seblah i and kacau2 radio dgn aircon k?

*************************************
On a more serious note, i had my life insurance exam this morning at Suntec Tower 2. Of course i failed like i always have (well, some people might agree), but then passing mark 75/100 and i got a damn 70. binget siak. $107 dollars gone like that. But anyways its aiy-owkay. Can always try again.
After that i waited for Mir to come, which seemed like ages.
Macam tunggu pokok durian berbuah. Pokok durian nk berbuah pon tk tu macam nye lamer.

Headed down to Marina Mandarin Hotel to look for job. but they freakin say they'll need 2 weeks to call me back IF i'm short-fucking-listed. anyways, i wanna go eat. Kebulur nk mampos!

taking caring!

I Wish I Wasn't

2007-06-25T18:08:00.000+08:00

I'm home alone again

And you're out hangin with your friends

So you say

Somehow I know it's not quite that way

It's getting pretty late

And you haven't checked on me all day

When I called you didn't answer

Now I'm feeling like your ignoring me

I wish that you were home

Holding me tight in your arms

And I wish I could go back

To the day before we met

And skip my regret

I wish I wasn't in love with you

So you couldn't hurt me

it just ain't fair the way you treat me

No you don'tdeserve me

Wasting my time thinking bout you when you ain't never gonna change

I wish I wasn't in love with you so

Iwouldn't feel this way

When you touch me my heart melts

And everything you did wrong I forgive

So you play me and take advantage

Of the love that I feel for you

Why you wanna hurt me so bad

I believed in you that's why I'm so mad

Now I'm drowning in disappointment

And it's hard for me to even look at you

Said you care about me

But from what I see,

I ain't feeling that

So I disagree

Gave you all my love

And understanding

And you're treating me like your enemy

So leave me alone

Don't want nothing from you

Just go back where you came from

This house is no longer your home

You are not welcome no more

Hear you knockin' at the door again

I'm wonderin' should I let you in

I open up the door and see

The flowers for me

Sobeautiful in your hand

Please stop begging me to take you back

I've always been a sucker for romance

And before you know it

I concede

You're all over me

Oh no, here I go again

I wish I wasn't in love with you

So you couldn't hurt me

Dancin in The Moonlight

2007-06-19T19:17:00.000+08:00

ahoy!

Haven't been really blogging cos its been somewhat of a boring week.
Been driving around a lot. And i have been in and out of Johor more times in this past week than i have had in 2 years. Stayed over at my house in JB over the weekend. Boy! Its the family home, MY family home... but i sure haven't been part of it lately.

Between Carrefour and JUSCO, Dunhills and Sampoerna Internationals, i really enjoyed life away from Singapore. Even if it was just two days worth.

Btw... i don't know if I'm supposed to blog abt this but Mir and I decided to save up to go to London somewhere in November. Ader jugaklah angan2 nk naik sampai Paris.
It may seem far-fetched but i think its really possible.
Its been ages since i went to London. Brisbane bley tunggu jap eh. Sori k Fahmy, lain tahun ah.

So i have my fingers crossed for all these plans i have. Oh God, i so wanna go.
Anyways, Mir.... I've checked. A return ticket to and from London, plus taes and fees would total up to ard SGD1432 or GBP473.

so.. guys, whoever you are... pray for me k.

taking care!

take it to the bridge....

2007-06-13T14:21:00.000+08:00

good things come to those who wait...
my mom would tell me.

eh really lah!! jadik beb...
went to collect my licence yesterday plus go do my passport.

imagine....
1. Going to kaki bukit SAF driving centre to collect the issuing letter.
2. Walk all the way out to the bus stop and take 15 to the interchange.
3. Take 72 all the way to Yio Chu Kang to SSDC to collect the licence.
4. Made us watch a stupid video, making me go "WHERE GOT TIME??"
5. Take the train to Lavender, go to ICA building.

Mak kau... by the time i as waiting for my number to be called i was already dozing off. tk hensem langsung siak. but then, boy was it all worth it. seriously.

Got a call from Najmi a few hours ago to tell me our dear friend Vignes passed away in accident.
He was a good friend. and he will be missed.

Vignes was a good man. god-fearing and kind...
will miss those maggi-sharing, ciggarette-steng-ing nights.
REST IN PEACE, FRIEND.

Bukan Diriku

2007-06-09T21:16:00.000+08:00

setelah kupahami
ku bukan yang terbaik
yang ada di hatimu
tak dapat kusangsikan
ternyata dirinyalah
yang mengerti kamu
bukanlah diriku

kini maafkanlah aku
bila ku menjadi bisu
kepada dirimu
bukan santunku terbungkam
hanya hatiku berbatas
tuk mengerti kamu
maafkanlah aku

walau kumasih mencintaimu
kuharus meninggalkanmu
kuharus melupakanmu
meski hatiku menyayangimu
nurani membutuhkanmu
kuharus merelakanmu

dan hanyalah dirimu
yang mampu memahamiku
yang dapat mengerti aku
ternyata dirinyalah
yang sanggup menyanjungmu
yang lama menyentuhmu
bukanlah diriku

-Samsons

Wish you were here...

2007-06-09T21:02:00.000+08:00

Could you ever say you were there?
When i needed you the most,
when i needed someone to talk to..
All you did was put me down
burying me alive.

Take back the hurt,
release me from the pain.
Give back the me you took
the one who knows he can.
You left me, walked out the door.
Leaving me behind, crying on the floor.

But I can't sleep at night
cos you're always on my mind.
you hate me for hanging on.
Can you ever blame me for holding on
to something I know,
for once in my most unfortunate life, is real?

Wish you were here...

Sentosa

2007-06-02T20:18:00.000+08:00

hi peeps!

Went to sentosa on thursday to we surprise apit. that idiot is finally getting enlisted.

the posse.

before...

during...

after.

good luck bro!

The Wait Is Finally Over!!!!!!!

2007-06-01T00:41:00.000+08:00

Muahhahahaha!!

ORD PERSONNEL FALL IN!
ORD PERSONNEL SEDIA!
ORD PERSONNEL KELUAR BARIS!

turn check bang check
up check down check
O!
R!
D!
ORD OH!

hahahaha!!!

Counting Down...

2007-05-30T00:02:00.000+08:00

Now now...

First and foremost,
I'd like to wish Nurdiyanah Arif a happy birthday. May you enjoy a wonderful year ahead and success in watever it is you are in.
i don't wanna be blogging around, being all jiwang-y anymore... But stranger, i do remember exactly two years ago.

recap!
1. Dinner at Lau Pa Sat
2. China Bar, you, me , Mir and Sinar
3. bus number 12, got apek isap gum boarding at bedok south
4. Crazy apek drop with us and you got really scared.. freaked out like org gile..

Its been two years.
Take care. Again, i hope you have a really happy birthday.
Smile always k stranger.

ANYWAYS!!!!
ORD COUNTDOWN TIMER : 2 FREAKIN' DAYS! as of right now...

Huak huak! Got all my stuff from my freaking cupboard home.
Honestly, i cannot wait for friday.
wahlau... my IC face sec 3 you know!
but then people, two years already uh!? so fast... Uncle Ab can't believe its gone just like that. neither can mir, me, farhan, firdaus, blah blah blah...

see you when i ORD! haha...

The Littlest Things

2007-05-27T03:24:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I find myself sittin' back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch other people kissin'
And I remember when you started callin' me your miss's
All the play fightin', all the flirtatious disses
I'd tell you sad stories about my childhood
I don't know why I trusted you but I knew that I could
We'd spend the whole weekend lying in our own dirt
I was just so happy in your boxers and your t-shirt

Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too.

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if for only one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?

Drinkin' tea in bed
Watching DVD's
When I discovered all your dirty grotty magazines
You take me out shopping and all we'd buy is trainers
As if we ever needed anything to entertain us
the first time that you introduced me to your friends
and you could tell I was nervous, so you held my hand
when I was feeling down, you made that face you do
no one in the world who could replace you

Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of me and you
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you feel the same way too

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if for only one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?

-Lily Allen

but could we just pretend for a weekend? i wish.

poop ploop

2007-05-26T18:18:00.000+08:00

Help! I'm stuck at home for the weekend!
Not fair... Mir's going to the new "Momo-with-a-new-name". I think its called Velvet Dragon or something like that. For sure a very ah-bengy name.
Reviews k Mir.

It has sure been a long time since i went clubbing.
I wouldn't say i miss the nightlife but its sure fun to go after such a long hiatus. I just don't see myself doing it week in and week out, unlike certain people. Last time i went was with Diy way back in January? February? Alersmamak, lama siak!
I will be back as soon as my job and car deals are done. Which is not gonna take sooo damn long. I promise.

well... toodles!

Take a good look at me now.

2007-05-26T01:12:00.001+08:00

Ever present

Trudging down memory lanes
Looking back at sunsets and sunrises
The waves brought you to me
The tides drifted you away.

Tender moments, unforgettable journeys
Tears and sparkles from those beautiful eyes
The breeze brought you closer to me
But the wind pushed you away.

Your presence lingers all around
At every corner, on every mantle
I thought i had you in my arms
But only those memories were ever present
Only memories...

- imran

zungu zungu zang!

2007-05-24T15:50:00.000+08:00

Goozness gracious!

coundown timer: 8 days!
haha...

been a long time coming, my dears.
2 years have been too long...
and here i come, real world!

anyways, went karaoke-ing with salma and the gang last thursday.
they all very clever, tell me meet at one at tampines mrt platform cos the thing starts at 2... ended up meeting up with salma first at eunos station and fari and boyfren came at 2+++.
last last kite nyanyi kul 3.
After 3 hours of jack daniels and whole lotta songs, we went to bugis for dinner and then arab street for shisha... fun fun!
after that went to mustafa centre cos i told them about laughing gas. they seemed kinda interested so we flew there.. no waste time!
we went to the park at tamp in front of century sq and well... i need no intro. but fari and ash needed some time to get that effect. esp fari.. pecah virgin la kate...
fari hi nk mampos bile tau? bile da nk balik! kekek siak....
haha!! eenuf weenuf!

got a call from my aunt... Syafiq's mom. she offered me a job with great easter after my mom told her about me going to sign up with AXA.
thing is, AXA is offering me an interesting job with only commisions... Great Eastern is contemplating giving me up to 2000 bucks basic. Dat one haven't even plus commision you know! tomorrow got appointment with them. wish me luck!

oh ya! i forgot... Last night AC Milan won! Watched it with Mir and Uncle at kedai kopi at drive 6 after Mir's appointment at Yishun. Uncle was sweating profusely cos he was a Liverpudlian... from the Kevin Keegan days. or so he says. Both of us just didn't support Liverpool, we are Gooners. On the other hand, Mir, well, she was concentrating more on this bangla we named Gafoor Abdurrahmann (accentuate the nn) . He was a victim of our people-watching spree at the kedai kopi. abeh mir, kau tkya lah nk sampai spot die nye every movement dumb dumb! nk kenal2 sgt per... aku bley arrange.

okok! i wanna go download songs...
taking care!

.getloose.footloose.dismantle.missedcall.

finally!

2007-05-16T17:23:00.000+08:00

I realised I've been really stoopid.
I was hanging onto a thread or so i thought there was one.

To that person, thank you for not replying on Sunday. By doing that you made me realise that hanging on was much too much.

Maybe this is wat you've wanted me to do, i don't know. Thank you anyway.
just don't' be a stranger aite. You know who you are.

anyways....
my NS life will be over in..........

2 WEEKS! hahaha!!!
Finally sia. It feels like a breath of fresh air, looking at all the things I've been put through
for the past 2 years. ouh... Looking back, i couldn't imagine being that strong to go through what i did.
For all those people who took part in my life during those trying times or whether you were the ones who caused it... Thank you. I would like to think i grew up because of that.

.getloose.footloose.

silly silly me...

2007-05-05T17:31:00.000+08:00

i am a lonely guy. a stupid one at that.
you must see me as this humour-loving, fun and friendly guy who gets along well with anybody.
i'm a good actor, mind you.

i have, in one way or another, pushed the women in my life away.
i could have hurt them, cheated on them, disappointed them, freaked them out and downright used them, whether with or without purpose.

i could go on and rant about how they don't understand me or how they don't see eye to eye with me.
but no.
nope nope nope nope nope nope....
they're not at fault. i am one person who's really bad at telling people how he really feels. even if i did, timing would absolutely suck.

and to a certain person...
don't you ever dare doubt my sincerity. i am a friend, nothing more nothing less. close to family but a friend nonetheless... i know my lines. and maybe i have never seen this side of you cos i have never expect to see it.

*****

For those who try to forget but just can't let go -

I remember...
Sitting on a couch
whispering sweet nothings,
drawing circles and figure-8s with your hair.
Calling each other sweet nicknames. Silly, but sweet.

I know its not right
you moved on.

I still...
Have that frame hung up in my room.
Leave my room kissing your picture on my mirror.
Sleep with your lime green shoal upon my face,
cos without it i can't sleep.
Remember 201204, that unforgettable night.
Miss your scent in the morning.

I know its not right
you moved on.

I do remember those times...
Times where others would've just let go,
but we hung on.
How we'd laugh our asses off,
and cried our tears.. together.

I know its not right
you moved on.

I will keep loving and missing you because...
You took my heart and i can't take it back.
You left an imprint so deep,
that it seems so long for me to fill it up again.
You are the best i ever had.
You fulfill my days like no other could.
I can't help feeling like this.

I know its not right
cos you moved on..
Its just soo wrong.

Stars

2007-05-04T19:36:00.000+08:00

Stars

Anyone who ever held you
Would tell you the way I'm feeling
Anyone who ever wanted you
Would try to tell you what I feel inside
The only thing I ever wanted
Was the feeling that you ain't faking
The only one you ever thought about
Wait a minute can't you see that

I wanna fall from the stars
Straight into your arms
I, I feel you
I hope you comprehend

For the man who tried to hurt you
He's explaining the way I'm feeling
For all the jealousy I caused you
States the reason why I'm trying to hide
As for all the things you taught me
It sends my future into clearer dimensions
You'll never know how much you hurt me
Stay a minute can't you see that

I wanna fall from the stars
Straight into your arms
I, I feel you
I hope you comprehend

Too many hearts are broken
A lover’s promise never came with a maybe
So many words are left unspoken
The silent voices are driving me crazy
As for all the pain you caused me
Making up could never be your intention
You’ll never know how much you hurt me
Stay can’t you see that

I wanna fall from the stars
Straight into your arms
I, I feel you
I hope you comprehend

-*-

on a lighter note... spent wednesday night with salma and hubby shahrul (oh i am so bad with names), fari and bf, ashraf... seeing fari ashraf, they're one couple i'd never see hook up.. its like hell froze over...
mak! over siak!
seriously, i know opposites attract.. but this is wayyy too opposite. nevertheless... good luck guys.

they invited me to karaoke session sometime next week or something... wah! can see farihah sing jiwang songs. i would pay to see that. hah!

toodles.

why bother to sleep when you got all the time in the world to when you're dead...

toosh!

2007-04-30T13:14:00.000+08:00

Godfather is the shiznit!

i've been playing that game for a day and a half and i just can't seem to let it go. killing people, taking over business... killing people over businesses.

"hey tony, relax. Its just business..." then, BANG BANG BANG!

hahaha... sadistic siak aku.
"keep your friends close, keep your enemies closer"

huak huak... banyak nah quoting.

on another note, i need to get away from here. my friend, fahmi who's in Brisbane now just invited me over. i mean i'd love to go. i love the weather there with the sceneries and all... have been to australia 3 times(but not brisbane), i'd really like to got to go!
to just get away from the hustle and bustle of this crazy li'l island is good for you, you know...

and i wanna check out studying and werking opportunities there...
dpt lobang aku cabot! sape nk tinggal kt singapore lamer2 ni. duit rokok dah nk naik 12 ketul satu packet. haha.. pukimak nye govt. keje nk mkn duit orang je.

gots to go now people. very busy day ahead.

taking care!

trashy

2007-04-24T18:36:00.000+08:00

hihi!

sorry for the long absence people!
been away from the comp for a whole nine days and finally i'm home!
for those been missing me, i miss you too! haha... crap.

so guess wat.. after nearly about 23 months of pure bullshit, there's only 4 working days left in my ns career. you know, i'd never thought i'll be happy to end any kind of career.

and yes farhana, now i can go get my chicken rice...

on the other hand i decided to try my hand job-finding and lo and behold! i got a job interview for a financial planner job with AXA, tomorrow. coolness...
got lots of things i wanna achieve after a whole 23 months-worth of thinkin. guess i could come up with my own lifelist.

don't really have much to blog about but i'm just happy to be home.
"my camp, my home" is no more..

life goes on my dears... cheer up!

My Goddess...

2007-04-15T15:17:00.000+08:00

there you go... Jessica Alba.. my Venus...

err... hello?!

2007-04-13T22:09:00.000+08:00

err... hello?! going crazy here...!

Its the end of my 9th day trapped in my camp because of SOL..
ya, ya... my camp, my home.

Beautiful right?
Other than disturbing the sacred sanctity of solace my mind is trying to achieve, this weird but sadistic punishment called SOL is actually very very money-saving. Think. My payday came on the 10th but i won't get to actually spend it till the 24th. OK wat. I mean the 24th isn't a month away from the 10th of May. hehe...

going shopping and clubbing ah! Too bad Club MOMO is closing down.
On the 17th sia i heard. Its just sad cos since the old Cheeky Monkeys closed down, to me, MOMO has been the bomb!

anyways... that's the future.
presently, i am in camp, going down to the guardroom to sign the SOL book at the stroke of every hour. thats the sadistic part. You might say, "hey its not that bad wat!"...
You wanna try it? Momma's boy won't even make it pass the first 24hrs.

now... LOVE LIFE UPDATE!
wahahah!! Not really love life lah..
but this girl i met thru my friend, Farhanah (i guess that's the way it spelt), is a very interesting chick. Prefers a non-mat (moi!), English-speaking (moi!), and good-looking (err... moi?) guy.
Been meaning to meet up but sad sad... I cannot go out leh!
haha... updates soon!
and there's Nisa too.. this chic from my former secondary school.
cute too.. haha...
As i would tell you like i told the rest..
"Imran is now single, available and ready to mingle!"

Till next time...
Cheers!

I know i'm not supposed to say this already... but i do miss you kitty...

broken...

2007-04-06T23:46:00.000+08:00

my second day of my 14-day sentence just ended...

i really miss everybody already.
my family, mir.... especially mir.

i think i would go crazy spending that much time in camp, not that i need the extra craziness installed inside my already troubled head.
thing is... i haven't had anybody who could keep me calm when i'm troubled.
there used to be kitty kat, but she's gone now.
and meercat can only do so much.

i think i need to shop.
haha....

speaking of that,
here are some stuff i really wanna get..

Marc Ecko Men's Watch E18500G1
last known price: $329

i think i've found the Masterpiece. This gorgeous, masculine watch features a polished silver case and bracelet, and interchangeable decorative bezels to match my everchanging mood.

Alessandro Dell Acqua Cologne by Alessandro Dell Acqua for Men

last known price: $69

i'm definitely gonna go get this once i get outta here. definitely.

and i intend to go to a men's spa up in pacific plaza once i'm out.. gonna start pampering myself instead.

till then...

drive safe, hold out the chairs, tip your waitreses!

i gots to go!

You look better from behind...

2007-04-05T01:16:00.002+08:00

Grown and sexy from your head,
down to your toes you know you're fine.
Got that perfect face a perfect shape,
and perfect smile.
But soon as you turned around,
it's something that I realized.
You look better from behind,
you look better from behind, grown and sexy.

Had to tell you, that I'm really feeling your style
Saw you walking by, and couldn't let you pass
Gotta tell ya, that I'm really feeling your smile
But even better, is the beauty of your ass
Staring right, into the beauty of your profile
There's something, that I gotta ask
Can you let me, let me...
Let me, view your beauty from the back!

You're grown and sexy!

haha...
i miss my kitty kat.

refresher...

2007-04-05T00:43:00.000+08:00

Hello people! Whichever people that looks at this little pathetic space called imran's blog..
hehe..

Just got back from an 8 day standby.. wah! tiring sia. Its like living in a shithole with no physical contact with the outside world. Only thing is, this shitole can feed you... with shit food nonetheless..
Been driving for the Seletar Dog Section the whole of last week. all i saw was the big-ass dogs and their handlers. mind you, when i say big-ass, i really mean big-ass. Those dogs could literally eat you up without even breaking a sweat.

anyways, scrap the previous entry about me getting SOL last week. I'm gonna get charged tomorrow morning...
wah, mak bapak aku pegi umrah aku kt camp, dorang dah balik aku masih kt camp.
wat to do.. tkde nasib. Lucky my parents understanding.
For those who don't know, my parents are the kinda parents who welcome punishments to their kids

example 1:
Back in primary 1 & 2, i used to get slapped by my teacher. yup! right smack on this cute little face. would tell my mom when i got home and guess wat, i'll get smacked on the other cheek

example 1:
Still the same childish boy in secondary school. My parents told my form teacher that if need be i deserve public caning, just go ahead.

haha...
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Went out with Mira today. go and sebok2 follow her go interview.
Got to meet Skye at Bugis. Waiting at the fountain at Bugis Junction, Mira and I sat, people watching for almost an hour.
You should look at Mira's face at the remarks i made about all those poor victims.
that guy looks gay, that girl looks like crap in that top...

well, basically i was being such a bitch.
Surprised?

Met Skye for the first time in 2 freaking long years.
Chat and laughed our asses off.
i miss that bugger. basically he was the older brother i never had...
i promise to update with photos the next time round. trying to get the photos from Mira..

wait! you could go on to her blog to see la!
well... till next time.

smell ya!

bluegh!

2007-03-23T22:29:00.001+08:00

I'm sorry.. i just have to let this out.

Dun you just get mad when someone was supposed to meet you after such a long time(results may vary) and u miss so damn much blows you off just because she can't say no to some jerk who wanted to pick her up.

that person just had to say "okok... tell you wat, i go eat with him after that i meet you."

HAH! yah... i deserve THAT from you wat.
i know i dont' fucking feature in your plans la but dun just smear the shit right onto my face like that.
oh wait! u always do that. hah...

not wanting to say who la..
sape makan lada, terase lah pedasnya.

you say i hurt you bad... but you don't give a needle-prick-sized fuck about how i feel most of the time.

i don't even believe you when you say you miss me cos i just don't feel it.
you gotta try harder than that la woman.

I would understand... NOT!!

2007-03-23T19:58:00.000+08:00

I successfully survived a whole week in camp. The last time i did that was eeoons ago sey!
Just got to know i'm gonna be charged with 14 days SOL. Thing is, within this 14 days i can't go out of camp.

My OC gave me this option;
1. get charged today(23 march) and it'll end on on 6th of April.
- the freakin problem with this is, i haven't been home for the week and i can't refresh my supplies of clothes, money (from dad's wallet.. hehe..) and ciggies.

2. get charged on monday (26th march) and end on 8th of April.
-mommy and daddy would be going to umrah on the 8th but the afternoon. i can only go home at night. so i won't meet my parents till they come back two weeks later. sad right.

Been waiting the whole day for the charge to come down and march into my OC's office.. He just had to take the whole day to tell me the charge hasn't come down and i'll be charged on monday instead. "Lan Lan" he said... Irritating sia!
So it dawned on me that i won't be sending my parents off.
Its actually saddening that i couldn't do that cos i'm the eldest and its an unspoken responsibility.

When it comes to everything else in life, i can be a man and be steady...
But when it comes to family. you my friends, can see Imran go down on his knees and cry.
I'm mommy and daddy's favourite son.

But i'm home now busy typing all this out and trying to explain to daddy what's going on at the same time.
haha...
Explaining to an old man regarding today's army. Can get pretty irritating.

Speaking of that, my dad is pretty hi-tech for his age, i think. He bought himself a laptop the other day and now has an msn account. Coolness or wat!

Okok, i think my tummy's holding a heavy metal concert cos its grumbling like one.
Gonna go eat mommy's chicken rice yum yum... and the chocolate cake she baked.

Till then, take care, have a good ride home..
And don't forget to tip your waitresses!

ciaoz...

You Think Everyday Sunday Ah?!

2007-03-20T18:49:00.000+08:00

the first kopek entry

Can't believe i'm actually staying in camp for a whole damn week...

Think i'm doin ok hanging on that thin-ass thread thats holding my insanity together.
Got combat shoot range yesterday which ended with a bang. literally..
well... wat to do? ord lo!

Been doing orientation the whole day today, cos mr "expert driver" here just had to bang into that stupid yellow lorry back in Jan. Sibei malu siak drive around with the idiotic big-ass 'P' plate which has "DRIVER UNDER ORIENTATION" written on it.
For those whose brains admin a bit lambat, only greenhorns drive with that pain in the ass sign.

Well... Got to do more driving now..

look... the late bloomer!

2007-03-18T18:34:00.000+08:00

i know, i know...
everybody's asking "im, dun u have a blog? hook me up..."
i'll just answer.. i dun have the time to keep one..

ok here's mine.
its plain cos i havent found the time to do anything abt it.
maybe i'll have somebody do that for me..

till then.. cheers!